|
amydapinhead
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Name: Amy
Location: Maryland, United States
Birthday: 3/19/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: A hem... Steven, playing the guitar (October 21), skateboading, surfing, listening to music that is actually good, watching FOX, singing while no one can hear me, haha.. Being on AIM, talking to my bestest friends, talking on the phone, screaming on the bus, calling people fuckers, watching the AMERICAN PIES, watching DVDs, taking cameras to school, and learning about the past in my family... December 12, 1924
* Nirvana, the Used, Led Zeppelin, Blink 182, Hoobastank, Sum 41, Apartment 26, Phantom Planet, Velvet Revolver, NOFX, Pearl Jam, System of a Down, Living End, Incubus, Stone Temple Pilots, Sublime, Story of the Year, 311, Lost Prophets, Switchfoot, Yellowcard, Metallica, Linkin Park, Eminem, Radiohead, Less Than Jake, David Bowie... It's all about the music that is good to you, so don't judge me based on what i listen to. Fuckers.
Expertise: Acting retarded, being stupid, laughing at stupid things, makin people love me <33, makin people hate me, makin people laugh, makin people cry...
Yet I can clap my hands, I can open a jar of peanut butter.. What can get better than this??!!
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Government
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  xpinheadamy
MSN: lilpunkgurl668@hotmail.com
ICQ:  204583606
Yahoo:  x0x0buttons
Member Since:
9/6/2003
|
|
| Ready so yeah. Amy never posts in here. Matt definitely had to start me up again... And I mean it's not like anyone ever reads this besides like 3 people. Anyway.
It's already October 5, 2006. Once I think about it, so much has
happened to me over these 3 years. And by so much I mean so much.
+ The Jenne deal? Spring break, 2006?
+ Car accident? May 2, 2006?
+ The _____ Era? The _____ Era? (don't worry about it).
Everything changed between everyone. Nothings the same. But
then again, no one cares. People changed for the better on their
part, even if it left everyone else behind. That's their
problem. But they don't care.
It's another thing when you notice how people change in order to benefit themselves.
I changed to keep myself from getting hurt. Which is always bound
to happen. But usually, of course, it is my fault, either way it
doesn't make a difference.
Right now, however, I am satisfied. My mom didn't believe I would
be, with so much dance and everything. I dance 6 days a week now,
usually a minimum of 3 hours each day. That's a lot. But
then again.. Everything is just going by sooo quickly...
Okay thats all I feel like writing. Went to court today with
Cathy and Adrian. Got absolutely nothing done. The end.
- Amy
| | |
| Yeah so lately. Or more like, within the last two minutes I was on Xanga... I felt this depression.
I miss 8th grade, just middle school. Best school years of my
life. I guess. Yeah it was good times, good times.
Happy Birthday Rami <3
My love. I fucking love you.
Happy Birthday Colleen.
Sweet sister, yo.
I was looking back at Steven's old Xanga posts. The ones that had
me in them were nice. I liked that, how he put me in there from
time to time. I don't think I ever told you, Steven, but yeah
that was sweet of you. Never failed to make me feel better no
matter what. K I'm done.
I kind of want a break. A break away from love. I haven't
been single since 7th grade... So that means practically 4 years.
Boyfriends. Always need a boyfriend. I get attatched too
easily. Then I can never let them go. But that's just me...
Always coming back saying sorry... saying "I love you".
Okay so I'm not done. Steven Chen. This post is for
you. Umm yeah I really hope you realize how sorry I am for all
the shit I put you through. I know this is SOO late and the whole
situation is SOOOO old, but I just wanted you to know that. I
guess we just never saw each other enough, and I got sick of it.
I wanted to be with you so badly that I decided to leave it
altogether. Looking back I just thought you deserved an apology
from me.. Cause now I'm a bit more mature and I understand these things
better.
Today was freaking sweet. Cathy, Teddy, and Adrian. We should definitely do that more often.
Relationships are way too overrated.
- Amy
| | |
| Wow this is kinda funny. I am updating this thing after like half a year. And what is there for me to say? Absolutely nothing. Nothing has changed, and nothing will be changing. In all honesty.
So my parents adore
Teddy. I don't know why. But they seem to be more fond over
Ryan just because. Umm yeah too bad I never see Ryan anymore...
Barely ever... We literally have been going out for a year and seven months, but yeah. Cool stuff, right?
Things actually have been really complicated.
Shit with Christina Damas and her mom, then Masha's parents, then
Alison's parents... yep they all hate me. Why? Because I'm
an easy target for hate. In
fact, they all hate me because of people just making up lies.
Sweet lies, too. Or maybe just overexaggerating events that no
one really knows about in the first place. Like how I tried to
keep Christina's mom from knowing that she literally cracked her head open while she was piss drunk. I mean wow, good call there. I just didn't want her seeing Masha drunk as hell while she ran away from the door after she rung the doorbell. At 3 in the morning. Yep good times.
Whatever, really, my life is actually going really well... I mean
steady, sometimes on and off. But I really couldn't care less
about small things that may or may not get me down. It's Spring Break
and I am loving it. Actually I'm really not.. It kind of
sucks. But that's what parties are for! Yeah I'm a party
animal! Ugh.
By the way, I'm getting my permit
tomorrow. Fina-fucking-ly. I've been lazy, and whoop whoop, look
at me go. Can't wait to stand in line for 2 hours.
Shitttt. AND I DROVE FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY!! Or, at three in the morning... Yeah anyways it was sweet. I thought I would suck at driving, but umm yeah I don't. I guess.
I think I will go and make myself a new icon while Teddy tells me how much he sweats me.
By the way. Juice Box Happy. Requiem for a Dream is a SAWEEEEET MOVIE about drugs. I LOVE DRUGS.  hahaha.
- Amy lalala.
| | |
| Happy Thanksgiving.
I mean I am probably the only kid in history that has to deal with celebrating holidays on their own. Sike. But for those of you who haven't yet - it's not all that bad.
I don't even know what I did to make my mom so mad. I mean I am sick and all. That's pretty much all I can say.
Apparently I piss my mom off, I make her miserable, and I'm not worth her time. Whoops. Guess I was just a mistake. I mean sometimes I just wish she could go on and say it. It's not like I wouldn't understand, I mean it is so obvious. She doesn't really like me, ugh whatever I don't know. And I can think whatever the hell I want. I absolutely hate it when people (such as family or friends) tell me what I should make of the actions that occur between me and my mom. It's really no one else's business besides me, my mom, and my dad. Let it stay that way, or I will hate you.
It was around this time of year when I had my parents tell me they wanted a divorce. Boo hoo, a one-day period of depression. Not a big deal, really. My dad didn't even move out until July, and it's better for me. Whenever I can't take shit in this house, I can just go on over to my dad's.
No, I'm not some pshyco crazy idiot who wants to kill herself, but if I died today, let's see what I would be missing out on (I was thinking about how depressing my list is):
% Own my own cell phone
% Win a competition all by myself
% Tell "someone" that I hate them
% Tell Dean that I really really miss him
% Hear my mom tell me she loves me
Yeah thats pretty much it. Nothing special. So I mean if I happened to die now there wouldn't be much to regret or miss. I mean I'd miss my friends and all, but none of you are that great anyways. Assholes (just kidding). Hope everyone's Thanksgiving isn't as depressing as mine.
-Amy | | |
| This is the begininning of my new super blog entry. Summer is officially here (no shit)! And thank god it's not over yet. Yay. Anyways, this is my summer so far:
+ Work - I got a job at Baskin Robbins (Cabin John Mall)
+ Beachie - Went to Ocean City with Masha Ryan and Morti.
+ Dance Camp - SWEET time at dance camp. HELL YES. Best camp ever. I love you all.
Oh and of course my summer isn't done with. In a few weeks I will be attending Ocean City once more with my daddy on a Surfing Trip. Yes, SURFING woo! Jealousy. And yeah so summer is pretty insane, besides the fact that I have to work like every day. And what sucks even more is that I get shit from people. Everyday. Oh well.
+ Love - Tomorrow is my 11 month anniversary with Ryan Leone <3 Pretty sweet, am I right?
Speaking of love... There's just so much on my mind right now. And I don't know if it's a good thing... Augh. And the worst part is I will never know how the real ending would have been like. It hurts. It's as if I need a closing... I need my happy ending. Who knows.
Yeah and thank you to all my lovely commenters <3 [DROP] Sorry if I can't get back to you.. I've been busy and barely able to update my own. Thanks though!
- amy [loves you]
and don't deny your love for moi. | | |
|
